It is becoming clear to me, again, that my mind thinks in ways that other's minds do not. I was always bored in school. Boring. No interest. Could have been a straight-A student...but was more than satisfied with Bs, Cs, and even some Ds. It meant nothing to me. I was not challenged.
I have spent the last three months working in Seattle for several days a week. Putting together a 4-hour flight attendant training project for my employer. I've enjoyed it. But it is painfully clear to me that I expect more of myself, and others, than they expect of themselves. I want more. I think in ways that others do not. I am not satisfied with status quo. I do not want another corporate training project or things that can be achieved elsewhere. I have finished developing a piece for the program called "Becoming the CEO of Your Life." Many, many hours of work. And a very nice product. Challenging. Expecting introspection and personal work on the insides. Expecting more. Wanting more. Wanting participants to dig deep.
But I've been slapped on the hands. Nope....too personal. Can't do that. We had something else in mind. "Let's bring it back to boring" is what I've surmised from the comments. So, for one more time in my life, I've been disenchanted with knowing that people simply are happy with status quo. With medium. With being good....not great or exceptional. With being afraid of asking more of people or pushing buttons that may very well be uncomfortable. So I'm back to middle ground. Boring ground. Nonchallenging ground. Again, just like in school, I'm bored.