Answer in the Sky

I'm sad. Very sad. I climbed into bed last night and stared. Just looked outside at the night sky through the open window. The crickets were chirping which is one of my all-time favorite sounds. And today, in the supermarket, it hit me. Very. Very. Hard. Answer in the Sky came on, one of Elton John's diddys. And the faucet opened up. Right in front of the cold cereal. And then again in front of the mixed nuts and chips.

Well they say that it's a fact

If you watch the sky at night

And if you stare into the darkness

You might see celestial light

And if your heart is empty

And there's no hope inside

There's a chance you'll find an answer in the sky

Well they say that it's a shame

If you have nothing to believe

And if you can't hold on to something

You might as well die where you sleep

You don't need a prayer

And there's no price to ask why

Sometimes you'll find an answer in the sky

And it's all so much bigger than it seems

And it all overwhelms us now and then

And I'm banking on a chance we believe

That good can still control the hearts of men

Sometimes you'll find an answer in the sky

This life's a long old road

We shouldn't have to walk alone

But if you find the right companion

You won't feel so worn out when you've grown

All life is precious

And every day's a prize

And sometimes you'll find an answer in the sky.

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It's so unusual for me -- the strong one, the oldest, the reliable rock, the one who is turned to so often. I know the buzz words, the phrases, the right words to say to others....and even hear them inside of my head and heart. It doesn't matter. I must say honestly, my heart is broken. Snapped like a twig at the horribly serious things I have no answers for or ability to fix.