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Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Center and Focus Have Gone Missing


It's clear I've lost my center. My focus. I just returned from a real bitch of a yoga class. My first in maybe three or four weeks which is entirely too long for something that I've come to need in such a giant way. In addition to the physical being not being prepared for class today it was painfully clear that my center point, my focus, my breath have gone missing. I've obviously allowed toxic attitudes in from the outside -- I rarely do that. In fact, I swear against it. And once they are in, they come back out of me in the form of giving bad attitudes to others. And that's a cycle that is nothing but crap. I don't believe in it. So, I confess to my lack of balance as of late. I confess to allowing outside negativity into my being. I confess to skipping out on yoga when I need it to remain a viable human being in this world. My mat and I need dates way more often than we've been getting them.

13 comments:

Robert said...

50 lashes for you! jk! :-)

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Breenlantern said...

point taken

Jim said...

Om!

Princessa lil mexico said...

Come on Comeback Kid!!

Blair said...

I guess when you are the "center" for so many people who look to you for support, encouragement and the unconditional love you provide, it is easy to get off balance. You amaze me with the strength and conviction you carry. You may seem to be out of sorts and unable to center and focus, but you have been able to help people find their own in their lives....

They will not be missing from your life for long....you will focus again and the balance and centering you know now will return again...

I adore you!

J.P. said...

I know what it's like to lose your center and like you I think I have been affected by a few toxic attitudes which boomerang back out of me. I'm finding my breathing and meditation I learned back during my yoga class in '98 is helping me too, but I have to remember to stop that cycle you're talking about.

Ur-spo said...

pish posh that does n't sound too bad some meditation and poses can not clean up.

Rick said...

Reminds me of my need to sign up for Yoga classes.

bridgeout said...

These sentiments resonate with me. O have let mine slip away... I remind myself daily that my road back is more about the direction I am facing than the distance I am covering.

RAD said...

I looked all over Seattle and havent found it...so you didnt leave it here-- and I am not even going into what you did forget that I did find...he he ha ha

Gregorio said...

Don't have to apologize, just one month without Yoga? Ha ha, it's been 3 years for me, lol!!

GrEgO

CJ/Rick said...

I'd love to have a date with you and the mat also. You always brighten my day Lewis.

Mark in DE said...

Sometimes it happens. The key is to recover from it as quickly as possible. NO BAD ATTITUDES!

:-)