I must admit that I don't feel today about Christian holidays the same way I used to. I've migrated. Holidays used to mean church, music, practice, new clothes to wear, up early, pancake breakfasts, flowers, and candy. And who could imagine an Easter without trumpet fanfare heralding Christ the Lord is Risen Today.....Alleluia. I still have some of those same sorts of feelings -- although I think they are more tied to memories of my childhood and past rather than tied directly to a system of faith or belief. I miss some things about the holidays and special memory-inducing moments. But I look at life far differently nowadays.
I think of Christ. Risen on Easter 'morn. I think of the miracles He did. The vision he promoted. The message he carried. And then I look at many of his followers today. And it doesn't all add up. The message is ill. The feelings are poor. The original Christ and many of his followers today operate on different planets. I'm afraid that He would have nothing to do with them. The Christ of old had nothing to do with those things I mentioned earlier -- the pancake breakfasts, flowers and such. And I think of the many, many occasions throughout the centuries where Christians could have chosen to do good....to do the right thing....and they chose not to. I mean, if you asked me today if I'm a Christian or not, I'd tell you yes. Of course I am. But we'd leave it at that. Because I want no association with the right-wing, political, evangelical church of today. It stands for nothing but political gain any longer. The message has been lost, vaporized, into who knows where. The church brought many good things into my life. But it also taught me to feel about people, life, the world, and events in a way that I do not subscribe to any longer.
So today, again, I struggle to find the right words to announce the Easter holiday. I'm thankful for springtime, for fresh new beginnings, for life, for my home and partner, and the pooch. And I'm grateful that I've grown, evolved, changed and challenged myself and my belief system. And I look for ways every day of my life to help out someone else. And I think I'll just leave it at that. Happy Easter. Happy Spring. Happy Newness to each of our lives.